In just over two weeks I’ve fallen in love and lived an eternity in the blink of an eye. It’s indescribable what adding to the family does to a mother but, for the third time, I’m here. I’m here staring down at deep blue eyes, tiny fingernails and little tucked up froggy baby legs. Sometimes all I can do is stare. This boy is perfect. This child, so precious, was created and grew inside me into a real life, gorgeous little being. All his miniature parts are perfect and functioning. I’m just amazed!
Amidst the admiration of my beautiful new baby and routine-lacking life I’m here, ready to share something. But where on earth does one begin?! How can I capture and express everything I’m feeling in a simple blog? I suppose the answer is that I can’t, and I don’t have to. But if I’m going to start somewhere, let’s start at the very beginning (it’s a very good place to start).
The day a child is born is one that is etched into the memory forever. There are details that I will surely never forget but many that will fade over time. The emotions connected to these details however, are etched on a mommy’s heart and although words are insufficient to describe them, every mom knows that breathtaking moment in time where a connection is made.
The baby has hair, dark hair! Just one more push, the baby is almost here! Oh it’s a boy and he’s gorgeous! Did they just say Baylor’s a boy? Yes! And he’s perfect.
The first cry fills the room- a beautiful sound of life.
Laying on my chest, breaths evening out and color fading to a healthy pink.
I melt beneath the weight of this tiny soul in my arms.
He’s absolutely perfect, and he’s mine.
Welcome to the world Baylor Michael Sansotta!
Since that moment my life has changed. As we get to know Baylor, we are adjusting to a new normal. I’m awake more at night and less productive during the day. The house isn’t as clean and no one notices if I forgo showering, mostly because nobody but my family sees me anyway. My big kids don’t get quite the attention I was previously able to offer, but they are loved and happy. I’m tired, deeply tired, but I'm even more deeply full.